Hi my name is Alyssa, I’ve been with my husband for 15 years and we have 4 children together. He is currently serving 9 months in jail for his 3rd DUI.
I have been Christian since I was 18. I’ve learned more about the Lord in the last 2 months then I have in the last few years. I’ve come totally dependent on the Lord for my every little need and desires since my husband has been gone. The Lord has provided for me emotionally, spiritually, financially, as well as comforting me. I realized the void I had in my heart no one can fill and make me happy not my husband, kids, friends, only the Lord can fill it.
It’s been a hard road and we still have months left to go. We decided that we will take 1 day at a time and that we will have some good days and some bad days. This is the day the Lord has made so let’s rejoice, again I say rejoice. Psalm 118:24.
Ultimately the reason why I’m writing this blog is to help others know that they have hope in the Lord and He loves you and wants to comfort you and be there for you, hopefully by my testimony you will be able to believe that He loves you too.
Every day come before the Lord with thanksgiving, ( 1 Chronicles 16:34 O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good; for his mercy endureth for ever ) which means I thank Him for everything that He has blessed me with then I pray to God for everything I need,( Matthew 6:5-13 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. 7And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. 8Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him), The Lord is here to listen He wants a relationship with you, ( Isaiah 30:18 Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion, For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!).
I read my bible and listen to worship music. Whenever I feel sad, down or I’m just having a bad day turn on some worship music and just listen, eventually you will start to worship and that will help life your mood. I also read books, the first I suggest is The purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. If it is possible for you and your husband to read this book together for the next 40 days it will draw you so close to the Lord, and give you a better understanding of what your purpose here on earth is. It will also give you something to communicate about on your phone calls other than the sadness or drama that can be happening to him on the inside or you on the outside, reading books together keeps you both focused and helps get through the day as well as growing in the Lord.
The first step would get plugged into your local church I know several in the area I can recommend to you. Don’t feel ashamed of your situation either, the church is here to help and pray for you, the church is a community of believers that wants to love and support you. I don’t have all the answers and I’m not perfect, far from it, I’m only sharing what is helping me so that maybe my story can help others in similar situations.
I encourage you to tell your story so others can know the Hope that only Jesus Christ can give. Also I want you to know I’m doing this for you, yes I don’t know who “you” are but I feel God has a plan and a purpose for you who ever “you” are reading this and God will speak to your heart and it is more than just 1 of you, there are many of you that God is speaking to right now saying this is it, this is your time to finally give yourself over completely to God, let His will be done in your life and the lives of your husband and children. If you know that I’m speaking to your heart please pray the prayer I have on “about Remember Me” page. God Bless you.